What's the point in making a damn effort if nobody else does? I mean G-d life is so F@%*ed up that even if you try and make one effort to try and make something better between two people there is no use because the other person wont budge. I hate those kinds of people sometimes. Those people who say one thing and do another! I mean what is the point in trying to fix something if when you say something they say "o ya ya im sorry" and then do the same thing that is messing up everything. Damn dont...

It is so frustrating how most stores and what not wont hire you if you are under age! I had just given up hope until just now!!!!!!!!!!i found a job...hopefully if they hire me but still!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY I FOUND A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy nothing could bring me down! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -dances in chair- Evanescence was gr8t last night! they rocked e...

It is weird how there is always a song that expresses how you are feeling. its funny there's a different song everyday. Today's song is With This Knife by Smile Empty Soul. these are the lyrics: "With This Knife" i let myself fall into a lie i let my walls come down i let myself smile and feel alive i let my walls come down no matter how i try i don't know why you push so far away you wrapped your hands tight around my heart and squeezed it full of pain with this knife i'll cut ou...

Today was a strange day. I spent the day cleaning until 3pm when matt came over to give me a guitar lesson. It was going great, except for my constant mess ups every time he tried to teach me something. He and i have been friends for a while and we're close. But While he was teaching me i got this sudden rush of sadness, i got utterly depressed and i cannot for the life of me figure out why. We went out to dinner, and we had a large pizza and ice cream. and it was great. But as the night grew s...