Today was a strange day. I spent the day cleaning until 3pm when matt came over to give me a guitar lesson. It was going great, except for my constant mess ups every time he tried to teach me something. He and i have been friends for a while and we're close. But While he was teaching me i got this sudden rush of sadness, i got utterly depressed and i cannot for the life of me figure out why. We went out to dinner, and we had a large pizza and ice cream. and it was great. But as the night grew so did my sadness and i do not know what to make of it. I had a great time and all but the sadness that has overtakin me is overwhelming. its confusing. life is just too fuckin confusing...damnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!